I keep getting Booted Out

I just tried to talk about the quiet, or lack of it, and the pain, or presence of it. Somehow, in some mysterious way, I WAS REJECTED by my beloved leopard hard drive. An interesting turn of the wheel. Now it seems all right with my thoughts'
My love, Tiger Baby, is upset as there is so much noise outside. This also makes me feel surrounded and out of control of my environment as the grass trimmers and blowers not only make noise but there is the scent of the gas. As opposed to The Scent of a Woman which is a movie i love and Zakly hates. DeNiro is magnetizing for me. Paul Newman is also amazing now. more amazing as he is older than the great early films. Itis now Friday and I just polished my nails with Nicole Miller polish, thanks to my Mama and her lovely and expensive taste.

Quiet Surrounds Me, Pain Grabs Attention

Acupuncture and Facials

Than Bluddha for both. Willlook into Elderhostel trips. I cringe as I say that. Have become addicted to the computer. Tomorrow shrink and sofa. At two different places. So many pictures of Anna. Anna and Julie and the guitar. Like deja vu all over again.

addiction

One month and sh will be three. Ihad a strange day. Couldn't figure out was the problem with the computer. Blank blue screen. First window of a galaxy or shooting stars. Millions. Then blank. I became very nervous, confused, no energy. Called the acupuncturist for more refills and a consult. lt is now thirty dollars. What to take to help my addiction to confusion, helplessness,lack of focus, walking around in circle.
I called David many times. Finally figured it out myself. NBD. Just like the last one.
Anyway, I feel addicted to this computer. the keys are a bit too shallow for me but the rest is awesome.
If I get to Portland I will have David get me a laptop so I can bring it to the parents.
Jealousy. M. has a lover. Is upset about my tree. It is always something and the rest is self servilng I think.

I want to go to Home Depot and get more portulacca. Forgot to call bus. Maybe on Sat. Got a jade plant and split it into three. Two little and a big.

Bogie went in his den for the first time. Just a week. So different from Phoebe and that is good. He ignores Bufos for one thing
Just ramblin' rose here. So much to do and I ignore it. Ignore me or indulge me in what i feel like even tho I feel like i wish the house was neat.
What an incredible treat.
I have to deal with boxes and boxes. First kitchen, bathroom, then next Sunday look for a sofa at IKEA
Very groggy. Tashi Delek Lalitasys

butchers; narcissists and other sources of pain

I just heard that Heparin, which a male narcissist i once came upon was busy weighing the molecular weight of this medical miracle, has tripled the number of people it has killed in recent time. I begged them , the narcissitic butchers and their acolytes, not to use it on the person I love. They said I did not have a good enough reason. That translates as "you are not a trained butcher so how would you know. "So they paralyzed her and created pain in the lives of three people. So much pain. So much arrogance. So little compassion. Better to hate and be honest. Not very "christian" of me. But that's not news. Lalitasya